I overspent. I admit it. And I felt sick inside. Oh my, when my husband finds out!
Have you been there? What do you do? Do you hide it and think that maybe he won’t find out? Or do you confess to him the error of your ways?
I had a rather stressful week, and might blog about that one day. But, let’s just say that it has been a very trying time. I was worried and anxious. I needed something to pacify that nagging fear, so I went shopping at a rather large discount store with my children. I spent some money that I was not supposed to spend. Now, mind you, it was not very much, but that money was taken already, and I spent it.
Mistake number one; I used shopping to pacify my needs. Instead of finding peace and comfort in Christ, I decided to do the worldly think and shop my fears away! How foolish!
Mistake number two; I was lacking integrity by dipping into already accounted for money. I did not resist the temptation and say “no” to self.
I knew my husband would find out. In the meantime, not only did I still worry about my other issue, but I felt sick at what I had done! So, not only did it not pacify my needs, but made them worse!
As my husband and I sat down to go over the bills, I was a little skirmish, knowing what was to come. I felt like a little child, waiting to be disciplined! Needless to say, he was disappointed. He had a frown on his face and asked about this little spending frenzy of mine.
I weaseled my way around it. But, that just wasn’t working for me or my conscious. I knew that an apology was needed and a real explanation. I eventually told him what had happened and that I was truly sorry.
Do you tend to spend money when you are stressed? Or, is overspending something that happens often? Think about the root cause of this, first of all. Are you bored? Have you not spent any money lately and are making up for lost time? Are you pacifying a certain need? Is it a habit?
God can and will provide us with a fulfillment that is so much more enjoyable and peaceful! Let us give our needs to Him and trust that He is our Ultimate Healer. How much our little selfish rampages would decline. What a true sense of satisfaction it is to know that we can rely on Jesus Christ and find peace!
I urge you to be honest with your husband if you did take a little spending spree. They do appreciate a humble confession. If he does get upset, at least you know that you did the right thing in confessing. Give him time to process and allow God to work on his heart as well.
So, I thank you, dear Husband, for your understanding! Thank you for reassuring me. And most importantly, thank you for giving me a glimpse of Christ’s love through you!