A Farm Baby is Brewing!

Boy have I got news for you!  I’ve been holding this in for over a month and can’t wait to share my story!

Many of you know that I have had two stillborns.  If you’d like to read about it, go here.  My last pregnancy ended at 11 weeks.   So, the thought of getting pregnant again scared me tremendously.   Over time, God changed my heart and although I was still fearful,  I became more open to giving him control.

I prayed every so often that God would not allow me to get pregnant if He planned on taking the baby from my womb.   This was not an angry prayer, but an honest petition to God to grant my request.  Not only did I not want to go through the heartache of another loss, but I did not want my family to go through it either.

And it happened.  But the thing is, I really didn’t think it would happen.  I was only about four weeks along when that little positive sign appeared.  And that is why my prayer changed to this,

“Lord, if you plan on taking this baby, please take him/her now before I get too attached.”

A few days later, I had baby names on my mind, girl names.  Now let me tell you,  I usually don’t get the itch to decide on any baby names until later on.  I hadn’t even told my husband about the pregnancy yet! Anyway, I got online and did a quick search.  Hebrew girl names popped up so I clicked on it.  I found a name that really stuck out, Eliana.

Eliana, how pretty!  But the meaning is important to me so, before I got too excited,  I needed to know what Eliana meant.  If it meant harlot or prostitute or some other horrible meaning, it just wasn’t gonna fly!

I clicked on the name and there it was.  A meaning that seemed to be talking to me in a still small voice.

“God has answered.”

I was somewhat shaken by this(when God speaks so plainly and clearly, it has that affect on me!) and laid my head on the back of the couch.  I knew God was speaking to me.  I know He has answered.  Sometimes I just need the answer written on the wall and, well, that was close enough!

I believe he will see this pregnancy through.  I admit that doubt creeps its ugly little head into my mind.  But those three simple words, “God has answered,” gently remind me that He is with me.  He cares about my worries and that has given me so much peace with this pregnancy.  I can rest in Him.

I’m due in February.   Your prayers for this little farm baby are more than welcomed and appreciated!

23 comments on “A Farm Baby is Brewing!

  1. So excited for you! We also have an Ellyanna( we changed the spelling and pronounciation) but we took it from the same Hebrew word Eliana as you did. We had also felt that God had answered our prayers after four years of trying. She is actually our second child but our only girl with three brothers. We get asked about her name a lot and how beautiful it is and it's always nice to get to share the meaning behind the name. So I was doubly excited to read your post this morning. Blessings to you all!!!

  2. Congratulations! I love how God speaks to us.

    I had a miscarriage in 1995. 3 months later I was expecting again. We had moved to a new church and every time I opened the song book, the word "faith" popped out at me. I felt God telling me to have faith in Him through this pregnancy. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was a girl and her name was to be Faith. In November of 1996, I gave birth to a healthy baby girl, which of course we named Faith. I hope that you will continue to share how God speaks to you through your pregnancy. ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. Oh dear Susie I will pray. Every. Day. May god give you peace. We misscarried last August after a tubal reversal in March. If it wasn't for a friend of mine and I insisting that the Dr. do a lapo. {he just said I had gas and sent me home three times!} I don't know I would be here. i had a tubal preg. that burst and I had been bleeding internally for four days. The blood was up into my lungs. The one side {Fal. tube} is defective and although our tubal Dr. {who is up in Valpo.} insists that cannot stop the Lord form giving us more that fear has crept in my mind all too often. And I too have said those same prayers. May God be with you dear friend. And I will pray you through each moment as I go about my day! Congrats sweet friend!

  4. Oh congratulations! I will be praying with you all. I am due with our 6th blessing in October. I have had two miscarriages (one in between our 3rd and 4th children and one right before I got pregnant this time.) I am really excited for you and your family!

  5. Awww……Susie ๐Ÿ™‚ I am praying and tonight we will lift this precious little life up to the gracious King of kings! I love your honest and sweet trust, and I love the name Eliana ๐Ÿ™‚ Keep us in the loop. dear friend <3 Love to the family!

  6. I just read this blog post and it gave me goosebumps (in a pleasant way), reading how God answered you and the way He spoke to you. Thank you for sharing with us! Congrats and may the Lord grant you a healthy, blessed baby. Eliana sounds like the perfect name!

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